It is about more than Surviving

I am starting to stand on my own two feet again.  I didn't think this moment would come so soon after Brandon deployed, but I wasn't getting anywhere dwelling on our last few moments together.  I feel stronger, more independent, and happier everyday that goes by.  I realize this deployement is only temporary and he will be back in my arms before the holidays roll around.  When the holidays approach I always hear people (myself included) say where did this year go?!?!  I don't want to feel that way, because after all I have Mason here.  I want to make everyday worth living with him.  I don't want to wish his young days away.  He is growing so quickly right before my eyes.

I did something I didn't think I could do, and I am pretty sure not many other people thought I could do.  It may not be a big deal to others, but I went out and bought a car.  I haggled, and made deals.  I did my research on the cars and read articles on what to say and not to say to the dealers.  I think I did good and I feel confident about the deal.  Overall, I feel relieved that we have a car now.  I did love that volvo and I appreciate what my parents did for our family at that time in our life. 

I still miss Brandon deeply, but we are surviving.  I would like to think we are doing more than surviving.  We are living and happy.  Brandon is having a chance to get back in the gym and I am concentrating on school.  The most important thing to do is make the time apart worth it.  Take care of yourself, do things you wouldn't normally do, hang out a little later with your girlfriends.  By no means would I choose to be apart from one another, and I am only making the best of what has been laid in our laps.