Espanol made me cry

My struggle with Spanish started in high school, and I quickly realized ASL(American Sign Language) would be a better fit for me.  For my degree that I am currently pursuing Spanish is highly recommended.  I am in Elementary Spanish folks, and boy it is a challenge for me.  The instructor speaks Spanish 90% of the class.  Since I missed his class yesterday morning, I had to go in today to make up the exam.   I thought I totally had it.  I was wrong.  It was like my mind drew a blank.  English rules wouldn't get out of my head.  All I kept saying in my head is i before e except after c.  It doesn't work like that in Spanish.  I couldn't remember what was masculine and feminine.  You would think this is what broke me down, but it wasn't.  Before turning the test in I came to the realization that I did my best and that is all I can expect out of myself.  I was on my way out, when Professor Salvador asked how I was holding up?  He asked me in Spanish, and I panicked for a moment thinking does he really want me to reply in Spanish.  Then the waterworks started.  My eyes filled up, and my heart started pounding.  Professor Salvador is a stranger to me, and he has tons of students.  He makes us put signs with our names written on it on our desk every single class, but he had it in him to remember why I missed class yesterday.  Strangers do care about me, my husband, our troops.  I told him I was okay, and hasta manana!  I didn't mean to be so short, but I hadn't expected anyone to say much to me at school.  I thought I was going to be in and out with minimal conversation, and his concern caught me off guard. 
By the way I am getting a tutor for Spanish.