Why my marriage can make it through a deployment?

Typically, you wouldn't think much good could come out of a deployment.  The word itself can make some of our stomachs turn.  The truth is that there is a positive side to it.  Looking back six months ago I felt so weak and vulnerable.  The slightest thing went wrong and I was a blubbering mess of smeared mascara.  I kept asking myself over and over again why me when things wouldn't go how I planned.  It finally hit me...WHY NOT ME?   Believe me this deployment dealt me a tricky set of cards.  Anything from car issues to appendicitis happened.  So now on to the positive part, I found my old self again.  I dusted off those jeans that have been hiding in the back of the drawer for far too long and made it a goal to see my butt in them again one day.  Also, I took a full time load at school both semesters.  Not only did I slowly start to gain control of my life again but I found independence and confidence.  Controlled confidence can be sexy.  All in all this deployment gave me a chance to focus on myself.  In return my family will also see the benefits of me taking time to better myself.  I look forward to having Brandon back in the picture with us and being a team again. 

On a side note it obviously took me a long time to get to this point and it is hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel when they first leave.  I also understand if Brandon deploys again one day we will probably go through similar steps all over.  All I am saying is there is always room to better ourselves and reinvent our dreams....no better time than a deployment to make it happen.