This to Shall Pass

I read over my recent posts and I realize that I may come off as poor me a little bit, and that is not that kind of blog I was going for.  I thought this would be more of a positive thing and help others cope with similar situations.  The truth is that this blog has become my outlet, and I have had a few cruddy situations lately.  I realize it could be worse, but I need somewhere to let my feelings out without judgement.  This blog is helping me overcome my day to day troubles that Brandon would usually help me work through.  I am completely guilty of leaving the good stuff out, but I try by the end of the post to put a positive spin on it.  Life isn't always going to be a bed of roses, and there will be thorns along the way.  Right now I am experiencing some huge thorns.  These thorns will disappear and our family will be stronger because of these times.  I can say that this blog is the truth through my eyes.  It is not censored and you are reading my deepest feelings.  Feelings, opinions, goals, outlooks can change even throughout the day depending on the environment around you.  When I feel that the weight is too heavy to bare I turn to this blog and let you have it how it is in that very moment.  My whole day isn't a complete mess.  Mason gives me the simplest grins and I am in heaven, Titan pouts until he is offered a place on the couch and that cracks me up, I have girl talk with my friends and I am refreshed.  I have more good times than bad times and I am thankful for that. 
Most of all I am thankful for the church home I am slowly finding a place in.  I have a damaged relationship with Christ that is constantly a work in progress.  I pray I am in the right place for now. 

Here is a song that just speaks to me right now.  Enjoy.

I was sure by now
God You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say "Amen", and it's still raining

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

And I'll praise You in this storm
And I will lift my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
And every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to you
And you raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You

But as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth