Keep on Keeping on

We are over the hump and I suppose we are on the down hill side now.  3 1/2 months and I am still standing and breathing.  I know I get stronger with every day that goes by, but I want my best friend back.  I need his support in so many things.  I am fortunate enough to be able to talk to him often through emails or phone calls, but that doesn't replace the look in his eyes that can say a 1000 words or when he grabs my hand to let me know we are in this together.  Most days I am OK but on evenings like tonight I feel overwhelmed with the amount of days we still have to be separated.  I feel horrible even mentioning this thought, but I wish I could go through a whole day without thinking about homecoming and deployment mess.  It is always in the back of my mind.  My husband and I have very separate lives right now and I will never see or understand where he is working at right now.  It is an odd feeling to go from knowing 90% of your spouse's days to being left to fill in the blanks.  Most details of my day feel too minor to even mention on the phone when we talk, but he insists that he wants to hear about it.  For now our family is going to keep on keeping on and pray that the next 3-4 months are a lot smoother than the past 4 months.