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I wish that the one person that I know will never walk away from me or stop loving me was here.

I miss Brandon with all my heart.  Not a moment goes by that my body doesn't ache for him. I would do anything to sleep with his arms around me, feel his lips pressing up against mine, and slip my hand into his.  He is involved in every single thought I have.  Every thing Mason does I wish he could see, every tear I cry I wish he could wipe, every new recipe I bake I wish he could taste, and every single morning I wake up I wish I could see his face.  I swear I tell myself and everyone else that I am doing better and it gets easier, but I can't make myself believe that.  There is not a single thing in the world he could do to make me love him less and I feel that same comfort from him.  I would love to look in his eyes right now and hear him tell me everything will be ok with that half grin on his face.  I could have 100 people tell me the same thing, but it wouldn't make me feel the way Brandon would.  The truth is that everything is okay if I have him and Mason at the end of the day. 

I can't wait until this is over.